it is really hard to have both or even three parties please at all times. and things usually turn out to be not the way i want them to be. 

i think i am just too mindful of other's feeling and words that i often get hurt from all the consequences of wrong move made. i bet thats also the reason why i am so emotional, always.

dars teaches me to prioritize in real life. one should know which is more important and make the necessary decision accordingly. i dont know how this formula works for me but one thing for sure is that dars is and will always be my top 1st priority! (:

i am living in dilemma now. this is my life and this is the reality, yah.